AHHH I HAVE A MANSS

HIIII EVERYONE!!! this is a bit nsfw so be cautious of that bby <3

life is literally so good for me right now. i couldn't be happier yet filled with more worry and anxiety. for a little bit of a background context, i met this guy at my job (I KNOWWW ITS BADDD) back in early march when i started working for the harry potter store in chicago. we didn't talk a lot at first but as we started working together more and more we began talking more but only at work. it was fun. it wasn't until monday of this week that we hung out for the first time. we ended up kissing and fucking the first time we hung out. I KNOW I KNOWWW but weed does that to a mf i dont know what to say LOL. 

i can't explain it. im trying very very hard to take things slow because i dont want this to be a modern day icarus retelling but i really really do like him. he asked me out on his birthday after i accidentally cried in his arms because he was eating me out and i got too nauseous and nearly threw up on my bed. i have a lot of lore pertaining to that and when it happened not once, but TWICE, i broke down crying. he immediately stopped, let me talk, listened, and we just cuddled. he never did anything until he verbally asked if i was okay to. 

i know its the bare minimum but when we live in the age of incels and men with hate in their hearts, its nice to meet someone who is a normal, kind alt person who is just freaky. im also freaky. out freak LMFAOOOO 

no but idk. ill post my lock screen. he is truly so cute and kind but i also know that it is only the third day, feelings are high, and by 3 months things will be drastically different. we will see. we will see. 

BUT AGHHHHHHH MY HOPELESS ROMANTIC SIDE IS BLOOMING WITH NOTHING BUT PURE BLISS AND JOY. I MET HIM ORGANICALLY EVERYTHING JUST KINDA HAPPENED ORGANICALLY IDK WHAT TO SAY! we truly started becoming friends after a brief interaction we had in which we were talking about zoning out or something and all i remember saying to him was "you're in a coma wake up. wake up wake up" with dead stare and full eye contact. 

i truly love my job as well. its a nice job and the rest of my coworkers are cool. i dont talk to them as much as i do with my mans but thats for an obvious reason. we dont see each other too too often. he is hopping around from place to place while im mostly on register unless told otherwise. im on the sales floor 99% of the time. the other 1% im smoking on my breaks.

im gonna let myself soak in this immense joy and happiness im feeling before im jolted back into the reality that is my roommate problems. i wish every a very amazing today and ill see u guys later mwah ily <33