this doesn’t really mean much, i just had to write about it idk

I hate waking up, and I hate going to sleep. Every time I try to sleep, the pain always comes back and I can never seem to get away from it. I wake up multiple times during the night, unable to go back to sleep. I can never tell myself, “Just go to sleep, it will all be better in the morning.” my hunger and my pain always comes back, and I can never get up to eat, as I will either faint or feel dizzy. My pain mostly stems from my hunger, but I can never get up to eat, so it never truly gets better.