Bleh***

For the first time in a long time I got some peace of mind. Im obviously spending that time making a blog post on spaceyhey :p but it got me thinking... I feel really unheard. Not the typical quiet girl, never really talks so no one knows what her true feelings are kind of unheard. But the I talk really loud and laugh really hard at every joke kind of unheard. You know????? Where I bottle all my emotions up into one big laugh just so I can momentarily run away from my problems. Because I have a shit ton of them. I mean even deciding to create a account where I chat to a demonic qwerty keyboard instead of talk to real humans about the way I feel is really telling. TBH I have a hard time expressing myself correctly. I could be smiling in your face and crying in my solar plexus at the same time. Currently I feel Un heard, Not respected, stuck on repeat, and chained to my responsibilities. If I could wake up tomorrow and make my own decisions that have nothing to do with anyone else AT ALL I would be a lost kitty. If you have any real advice, not that "It'll. all get better.." crap feel free to leave a comment. Other than that, my laptop is on 2% and I'm irresponsible... ok byeeeeeeee!