Rant about everything and nothing<33

I feel like such a yapper when I upload lmao. Anyways, PPL IN MY CLASSES ARE SO ANNOYING UGHHHH. So there are several people in my English class I CAN NOT STAND. The first guy imma call Ethan. Omg wait this feels so toxic nvm lol-

BUTTT idk if yall know this but I loveee crystals and collecting them and all that. For my birthday I was given Jade, Aquamarine, Pyrite, Labradorite, Rose Quartz, Blue Agate, and this one motherflipping stone I can’t identify. Literally like- I go about my usual business when it comes to identifying stones I don’t immediately recognize. First I go through my mental list of stones, if it’s not there I start googling smth like “red yellow stone that’s sparkly” idfk, stuff like that yk? I didn’t find anything. I resorted to my third method, reverse image search. Put the pic into google, see what comes up. Now USUALLY the third method works really well. HOWEVER, this time instead of the usual tumbled stones I’m used to getting, this one was shaped which meant google picked it up as jewelry instead of just a stone!!! Now google thinks I’ve been looking at raw sapphire or smth  ToT

Apart from that life’s been good other than the fact I’m realizing I’m kinda gay asf lol. I’ll be scrolling on Pinterest and see this girl that gets me giggling and blushing and kicking my feet and then I’m sitting there like “ykw for a straight bitch ur kinda…just a little fruity” AND THEN I REALIZE IM PROLLY JUST BI ASF LMAO. Idrk cus I might be pan but unlike my whole “wtf is my identity” saga I’m just kinda waiting this one out. If one day I find myself dating a girl imma be like “yeah he probably bi” or if I find myself leaning more towards pan I’ll be like “hey you might be pan”. I’m just kinda waiting to find out, I don’t care as much about my sexuality compared to how I cared about my identity  •v•;

Alsooo, recently I started thinking about Given again (it’s an anime, look it up if you don’t know what it is :)) and I still can’t stand everything that happenedddd spoiler and heavy trigger warning btw because YOU CANT JUST DATE SOMEONE WHO TRIES TO S/A YOU. LIKE BRO- AUGHHHHHHH. THIS FREAKING SHOW LMAO. I FUCCKKKKK WITH THE HIIRAGI MIX THO LIKE THAT WHOLE THING WAS SO CUTE OMFG. UNLIKE CERTAIN OTHER COUPLES *cough* AKIHIKO OR WHATEVER TF UR NAME WAS *cough* THERE WAS CONSENT. NOT ONLY THAT BUT WE GOT A BUILDUP TO THE CONFESSION UNLIKE HOW WE DID WITH UENOYAMA ANS MAFUYUU. LIKE YEAH THEYRE CUTE AND STUFF BUT WE NEED MORE STORY FOR THEM AS A COUPLE RATHER THAN HEAVY EMPHASIS ON ONLY ONE GUY WHO BARELY GETS ANY TALKING POINTS. THE HIIRAGI MIX GAVE US SMTH CUTE AND CONSENSUAL AND A NON CREEPY AGE GAP. THATS RIGHT, IM LOOKING AT YOU STRANGER BY THE SHORE. MORE LIKE GROOMER LOOKING AT EMOTIONALLY VULNERABLE TEENAGER BY THE SHORE. YEAH, YOU HEARD ME.

Okok, I’m done…but ughhhh I fuck with the Hiiragi Mix SO HARD. Also, fully unrelated, I’ve realized where I stand spiritually and with god and stuff. Way to go me and my totally smooth transitions lol. I was sitting in the restroom just kinda thinking about life and existence, as one does on an average Tuesday, and I was sitting there like “I believe in several contradicting things at once…I believe in reincarnation but I also believe in heaven and hell but simultaneously I believe in Greek mythology…?” Eventually I came to the conclusion I’m really just open to suggestion. Whatever happens at the end of my life and wherever I end up going is kinda just what’s gonna happen and I’m fine not preparing for it. I generally really like taking about religion and stuff, like it’s so fun-. Like of course I do my best to be respectful and unbiased. As someone with many family members who have religious trauma I truly and honestly do my best to try and respect everyone’s point of view when it comes to religion and cults etc and I forgot where I was going with this lol. It’s late rn, I have classes at 9am :’)

Im a dumbass tho sooo…bro I just remembered I have this project due literally tomorrow and I’m only halfway done with it. Ahhh I told myself to keep working on it two days ago and then procrastinated  ToT  ToT

I should prolly go to bed :’)

If you somehow read this far without losing brain cells, I appreciate you sticking around for so long. Have a wonderful day<33