April showers

Is the secret to having a better mindset blocking your evil ex on every platform known to man and going to Disney world for a week? Maybe so. Spring break was the best I had felt in a long time, now I'm sorta back in a funk of get up, go to school, prepare for a theater performance, schoolwork, more theater preparation, go home and rot. Still, definitely having a better time in life right now. Like I said, evil ex is blocked. Life has color again. PLUS I AM NO LONGER SICK. I felt as though I was never going to escape my shackles. I'll still have a random cough here and there, but I think that's just something I'm going to learn to live with for a while. 

My college professors are being nice to me, I'm gonna be able to make up assignments I didn't complete while I was dying from illness. Teachers who say "this won't fly in college" are simply wrong. I have submitted so many assignments where I 100 percent didn't meet all the criteria, and I still received an A. Either I'm just that good or my dual enrollment professors are extremely lazy.

The Minecraft movie did not disappoint me. I knew going into it that it was going to be awful, and it was, but I still loved some parts. The cheesiness just gives me nostalgia for a time I didn't exactly experience; I watched Minecraft YouTubers, but I myself have never owned the game. Once I get a PC again, or more storage on my Nintendo switch, Minecraft will be mine. 

I had colorguard auditions a couple of weeks ago. Made the team! Not surprised (said as un-cocky as possible) because I made it last year and I think my coach generally likes me. Hopefully she'll like me even more this year, because I'm hoping to be captain. Im actively working on the paperwork and applications for it as we speak. My marching band makes us go through a long-winded process to get our leadership positions. While this is only my second year of doing colorguard, it'll be my 4th in marching band, so I think I have a decent shot at becoming a captain. Fingers crossed

Even the music I'm listening to is happier than last month's. "Trees and Flowers" by Strawberry Switchblade. Epitome of springtime music. The melody just sounds like blooming blossoms. Am I biased for saying that spring is my favorite? Possibly. Do I care? Not one bit. Fall's not far behind though, I'm just a sucker for weather that is "Moderate". I hate when it's too cold or too hot (More on the "too cold" spectrum. If I'm chilled to the bone and I haven't seen the sun in 3 months, I start to go crazy. If you haven't gathered, march was still pretty cold where I live.) 

This month feels like it's just started and we're already halfway through. Kinda glad, since school ends next month, but on the other hand I'm super busy this month, and I haven't felt like I've had adequate time to spend alone, working on myself. 

I want to get reacquainted with God and my religion. I want to have that saved feeling. But I really just don't know where to start. I'll read on the Bible app for about a week, and then fall back into the same old habits I was trying to get away from. I'm sick of being a lukewarm Christian, but it's just so hard. I think I need a physical Bible, with a cute cover. I think it'll encourage me to read it some more. I've always believed in God, but of course I often have my doubts and intrusive thoughts. That's a main reason why I want to start working towards being more religious, so I can maybe get rid of the doubts. I should start going to church more than just when I have to serve as a Crucifer. I love my church and its community, but like I said, been busy. 

This summer will be my hiking arc. My friend keeps inviting me to go, and I really want to start doing it. The closest thing I've done to hiking recently is I walked 30 minutes to get myself some Dairy Queen today. Was that big of me? Absolutely. But at least I got some steps in.

Oh, I also need to get my license. No exceptions. That's my biggest goal for this summer.

But my biggest goal as of right now? Try to keep improving each month, and keep my gpa at a 3.5 or above. I think I'm on a good path right now, let's just hope there aren't any road blocks in the upcoming weeks. If there are, at least I'll know that the April showers will bring the May flowers.

Why hasn't my sol de Janeiro order arrived. I want to smell like the beach and hibiscus right now :(