04/16/2025

Living my best-worst life rn!!! :D

I think I might be in an emotionally inappropriate relationship with one of my male coworkers! YAY :DDDDD

He's a little bit older than me(he's 24) and has a girlfriend that he does love and I don't doubt he loves and likes her, which that's is good for them BUT I think he is a little to emotionally invested in how i'm doing sometimes. I don't think I'm special or anything and tbh I think everything he's done he would do for any other person but it is weird how he acts sometimes. For context mid February last year i ended up texting him and venting to him one night about a VERY personal problem and sometimes I still vent to him and ask him for some minor help. Anyways last night I got high with a friend and I ended up texting him about some stupid Instagram post and he was already fucked up and during the convo. I ended up slipping up and mentioning I had a REALLY bad Monday(literally all I said nothing more or less) but that I was doing fine, now he wants to make sure "staying healthy" and wants to know about if anything is stressing me out and idk if that's an emotionally inappropriate relationship or just a kinda normal friendship with a man. Besides him I don't think I have any male friends and tbh I've never had that many male friends so idk what to do.

Other than that I feel like I'm living the life high school me was promised lol. Literally just smoking in the park after dark with a friend but I love it! Spending time at the library studying and then just hanging out afterwards is always amazing and puts me in a good mood.

Right now though I'm just smoking a menthol(they're okay but I lowkey prefer the regular) listing to my playlist and eating before work and I feel conflicted but okayish.