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Guys, the first thing is there are a lot of types of satanists. There are atheistic Satanists- they view Satan only as a symbol- and theistic Satanists- they believe in Satan as a being. There are a lot of temples- Joy of Satan, Church of Satan, Temple of Seth and etc. The people who kill animals or r@pe women in name of Satan are pseudosatanists. They just found way to justify it. They have nothing in common with real satanists.
I was a theistic satanist. I didn't belong to any temple, but I believed in satanism the way of JoS. And rll important note here- Maxime is a n@zis and she had weird stuff in her teachings- I did not support that. I never liked the Austrian painter or anything. Most of JoS people aren't n@zis- trust me.
Maxime tells everybody not to be a trusting sheep, but at the same time she wanted us to be her sheep. First, I didn't rll understand that. I thought everything was okay, but wasn't. I rll didn't like Jews at some point because of her. But after a while I understood everything was so stupid. Now I don't care about them. Why would I, right? I started to modificate my beliefs and it made me lot happier, I wasn't a sheep anymore. Then I started to deny it, maybe it isn't real at all? So I asked for signs. I actually got them. A asked about something- after literally few minutes it happend. I asked about things not once or twice. Everything happened like I wanted. I was rll convinced for a while. But then I've read that I shouldn't ask for things like that and it made me feel rll bad. After w a while I came up with the idea, that maybe almost every god exist, they coexist and just different people decide to worship different beings and almost everybody is right about their religion and that it's true? So I prayed do Behemoth, Satan, Apollo, even Christian God. I actually didn't like God, I've always thought about him as a rll selfish god, but tried to communicate anyways.
But after a while. One thing came to me- what if I'm going to hell? Or what if those signs were just a coincidence?? I asked for more signs, but nobody responded. I didn't know, if it's proof that everything is a lie or I just made gods angry? That I want more and more proofs??
Now I don't know if I believe in anything or what... I wanna believe again, I was rll happy then. I felt somebody helped me, that I can rely on somebody... But I can't... But maybe it's better for me? I don't know...
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Ievuks
Okay so personally, I believe in a higher power than us. This is where most people get mistaken. Yes, I believe in God, I DONT believe that there's a huge ass man sitting in the clouds counting every single sin that has been made. I believe that God is inside of each and every person, our soul. I basically ask for signs every day, and it's mostly the most littlest things that sometimes may feel like you're going insane. Like the other day I was taking a walk and I was talking to the universe/god through wind, asking it yes or no questions
. If you want clear answers, try getting tarot cards and speak to whoever you want to reach. What I'm talking about rn may sound like I'm going insane (trust me, it feels like it), but ever since I started believing this, everything I wanted just happened to me. BTW THIS IS JUST WHAT I BELIEVE IN, IM JUST SHARING MY BELIEFS
Maybe I will buy tarot cards, but it will be a bit difficult for me, becouse I will have to hide them from my family. TY<3
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Lee
Biblically speaking, hell doesn't even exist and there are no mentions of it if you dig deep in the bible
it was theoretically added by King James in the translation because of false interpretation
TY I'll look up it
by Emo_Girl^^; ; Report
LOL my mom is in the JW cult and she's making me read things too but I am mostly just agnostic/atheistic,
I believe there is no god, god yk. Maybe something like a jellyfish swimming around in the cosmos in another dimension and doesnt count sin
nothing really is a sin unless you're harming other people
rape, murder, cannibalism and burglary and shit is a sin
being LGBTQ+ and queer and trans and questioning your beliefs isn't a sin
everyone should question themselves and find something truer
by Lee; ; Report
So honestly I'm actually a person who doesn't rll believe in any kind of sin, good and evil. I categorize some actions as smth I would do or smth I wouldn't do. That's it. Our view on good and evil changed so much through the history, I think that it's made up. And about LGBT I can't imagine how loving someone can be considered a sin, it just doesn't make any sense to me, because you can't choose to be gay. Ofc there are some films on IG that show people who stopped being gay but I don't believe in it. I can't imagine a god who made people without a choice and still say they're sinning
by Emo_Girl^^; ; Report
you real af girl
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