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i hate lust so much. i remember in the past, when it's always creep in my mind and rot it into a mushy paste. i couldn't get my hands off of myself and everytime i did it, all i felt was guilt right after. in the past i wished i cut off my hands that were drenched in filth.
i had this dream last night that had lust. it made my body feel weird and i couldn't differentiate it from reality.
the throbbing was too real. the wetness was too real. and the regret stabbed me the most and it felt so real. the loneliness and desperation. i was the filthy girl again that i wanted killed.
ik people my age have dreams like this too and its normal, but i hate it i hate having it.
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لوسيان
It’s really hard to get over, especially at a young age w hormones, it’s not impossible though. The feeling that comes when you can control the urges is amazing. It may be different for females, I dont know, but I struggled deeply for a period and only recently feel comfortable saying I’ve overcome it. I think that an important step is acceptance and acknowledgment of the feeling when it arises and then being okay with having the feeling and urge yet not acting upon it. It’s 100% going to be difficult and take some time but it’s also 100% worth it. Small changes in lifestyle like cold showers or giving into other temptations less can help you overcome it as well :)
thanks!!!💗
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no problem :)
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