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I’m getting better

Holy shit I picked up bass guitar a week ago and I’ve learned so fast. I’m having my step dad help me and my mom has only been a huge help!! I’m getting back into Hannibal and shit and UDHDHDH…I’m so glad I’m in the place am I … I’ve learned so many bass lines to songs and mastered them. My step dad, SHO WAS IN A BAND WHO TOURED AROUND THE STATES, said I have an ear and I’m good!! I’m actually doing better mentally and I’m getting a job soon?? Whenever I think about getting a job I think about how I was Yaoi maxing at my first job…beautiful times ( all I did was read a paragraph of a fanfic that my coworker and I bonded over). My writing has gotten so much better and I just feel healthier in general (besides my acne…) I’ve been cleaning up my room every night and getting assignments done on time HDJDKSIDIFHE I’m doing so good and I wish I could just talk to that version of me in August-October who was convinced nothing was worth it and show him were we are. I want to show him all what we’ve done and who we’ve meet. I want to hold him and tell him it isn’t the end of the world, the story will forever continue. His skeleton is something I carry around endlessly, and I’m okay with it. I carry reminders of him burned and sketched into my skin on the scar that will never fade. I always hated having scars but felt like I need them to be a person; yet, I’ve managed to just be okay with them. I’ve gained a pound or two ever since I’ve felt happier but I’ve been getting better with that as well. I cant consume as much of the media about those topics as I wish I could. I hold myself back because I don’t want to trigger a spiral. That skeleton would HATE that I stop myself from being triggered but honestly? It makes me proud and I know a part of him is relieved that he won’t put himself through it over and over, repeating a cycle. I wish I could tell him and tell him how to break it, but only experience will he listen and learn from. I’m proud of him and myself for making it as far as we have. 


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RAHHHHHH I'M SO PROUD OF YOU YOU'RE SO SKIBIDI SIGMA MY KING 👅👅👅️‍💋‍️‍💋‍️‍💋‍


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