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Every single one of them. They all do something to piss me off every time i hang out with them and they don't even realize. It hurts so much to hear how they talk about me and to me and yet i keep crawling back to them because i'm so afraid of being alone. I feel pathetic. Everyone around me has such a big friendgroup and i don't even like the two closest to me. I keep making the same mistake, i keep being friends with the same type of people and wonder why i always end up hurt. I need to cut them off. I need to be away from them but god being alone makes me so afraid. I need to start over. I can't keep doing this to myself.
i hate my friends
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Strudel
Definitely donβt give up! Some friends are just the ones you make along the way, if they are not good for you remember thereβs more than a billion aliens on this earth bound to understand you!
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Ugh this so honestly hits my heart. I B feeling so damn left out the conversations like. Not tryna be lonely but not tryna be in this toxic environment.
β zhuva β
you're actually so real for this. the fear of being left alone is sometimes paralysing, to the point that it feel better to poison yourself with bad company. it's difficult to get over this feeling. one has to either first - feel comfortable being alone/with themselves, or just find new people, which isn't as easy as it sounds...
but, change, no matter how painful, is necessary. it will probably take a long time, but it will pass. you'll find your people eventually, even if it feels impossible
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