travel journal entry #1

tHE WORLD IS QUITE SHINY WHEN YOU’RE OUT THERE. pEOPLE ARE NICE AND FUNNY – eVEN MYSELF. i AM NOT DYING TEN TIMES A DAY, ONLY A FEW, FROM EMBARRASSMENT, BECAUSE BEING ALIVE IS A SHAMEFUL THING. mORE SO, IF YOU’RE MYSELF. aND THAT’S NO PITY PARTY INVITATION SEND-OFF, BUT A MERE REFLECTION OF A REALITY THAT SEEMS INVISIBLE TO EVERYONE BUT ME. tHEY THINK ME RUDE OR JUDGY –AND I JUDGE, A LOT– BUT C’S WORLD IS SO MUCH BRIGHTER THAN MINE I ONLY JUDGE MYSELF WHEN WITH HER– tHAT IS TO SAY, I HOPE THEY KNOW I’M ONLY STUPID. 

bEING OUT THERE IS EXHAUSTING AND BEING NICE, AND FUNNY, TAKES UP ALL OF MY ENERGY, AND SO I STAY IN. iT’S NOT SO BAD. 

lAST NIGHT WE HAD DRINKS – i SHOULD PROBABLY LEARN SOME CONTROL. 

aND HUNG OUT– i SHOULD PROBABLY LEARN TO LET GO.

wE BOUGHT WEED FROM SOME GUYS AT A GAS STATION WHO OVERPRICED AND I JOKINGLY OFFERED A BJ INSTEAD – i AM NOT AFRAID OF MEN ANYMORE BECAUSE I TOO AM A MAN. 

i JOKE LIKE A MAN AND FLIRT WITH MEN LIKE A MAN AND WORE A PRETTY FUCKING DRESS TODAY.

wE’RE GOING TO THE BEACH BUT I’M HUNGOVER. 

tHEY WENT VISIT A CAVE AND SOME CACTI. 

aND I’M GOING TO TAKE A NAP. LIKE A MAN.

(lnzrt)