its been awhile :) (TW: DEATH MENTION)

hello everyone! hope you guys are doing well. Hope ya'll are ready to strap in because this is gonna be a LONG blog post. (life updates + how i'm doing + tw: yapper)

soooo :3 first of all, idk if i posted about this before but my mom kinda .. passed.

thats ok tho! i'm getting therapy for it and my therapist is the COOLEST person ever. Unlike other therapists i have met, she doesn't look at me in a way that seems judgemental and actually relates to my problems!! Although my dad obv isn't taking my mom's pass(?) really well. I love him but ever since mom yk he started to get more snappy at us- But ofc theres some parts where he's nice and all but he scares me sometimes :( especially knowing that he's bigger and stronger than us and that he can hit us if he wanted to. BUT BTW he never hit us or anything!! i'm just kinda worried abt him. He always tells us that he doesn't need therapy because he already dealt with these kinds of things before. And me and my sister don't rlly believe him.. for now, we're just trying to kindly suggest some therapy. but i feel like one day we're gonna have to force him to go to therapy :((

ANYWAAYYYY my school life's going great!! i have a friend and her name is ANA LUISA!!!1!!!1 SHES SO FRICKIN' COOL!!!! She knows how to draw (LIKE ME) and she likes rlly rare indie games that almost nobody in my school knows abt (LIKE MEEE) AGSJHAHGAS IM SO EXCITED!!!! She draws WAYY better thn me tho :0 she can draw realistically and one time she gave me a little abnormal map piece which i used as inspo for a dnd map which i will hopefully use.. (ps: idk how to play dnd yet HAHA)- Other than Ana Luisa, i'm talking to a boy group in my class. They're really really stupid. But thats ok because i'm stupid too LOL i'll fit right in!! But we aren't friends yet. I mean- atleast i don't think so?? Only if they say we're friends ig. alsososososososoo.... one guy(J) in the group told me that another guy(G) in the group liked me. Said guy is... really not bf-material T_T but idek if that rumour is true or not >:(( we'll see in the future LOLZ

The only thing i don't like about school is the mean principal. You see- i get rlly overstimulated with loud noises (people loudly talking, bangs, crashes etc) so i stay in the classroom while everyone goes down the stairs for recess/lunch! The principal's name is GLAUCIA btw. (stupid rich girl name) and while i was in the classroom drawing and waiting for recess/lunch to end, she gets in the classroom and goes "Oh you can't stay here" even tho i told her multiple times that i have that loud-noises problem. I told her abt it again and she just said "Oh" and left. DO YOU HAVE AMNESIA OR SMTH??? REMEMBER STUDENT'S PROBLEMS IDIDOTTTTt!!t!t!tt!t!t!t!tT1 ughhhh... i'm also doing rlly RLLY bad at math- idk why- i used to be so good at math but now i'm getting zeros and threes on my test!! </3

alsooo theres a chance i might travel to a lake in july ;) im so EXCITEDDD!! EVEN THO THE TRIP WASN'T CONFIRMED NOR DENIED!!!!!! We already went to said lake last year, but i'm so hungry for new things that i just can't wait to go again!

Regarding my other blog, which had a topic of my gender, i'm now genderfluid! I realized that you can experiment with your gender just like tasting a soup- If you don't like one, then try the next one until you feel that it's perfect for you >_>

hhhhh thats all for now! How am i doing? Right now i feel like a joyous little bastard >:)