i. hate. males.

Insert some cool subheader here or some shit. Call me a feminist, I don't give a fuck.

Hi! I'm what we called a "tortured soul." It is probably the most difficult thing to be a trans girl in a conservative school full of fucked up airheaded immature children. It's genuinely so painful. And I'm gonna rant about it THIS ENTIRE ENTRY!! (my bad.)

Today, 3rd block in my school, was P.E. / Health. They thought it would be a good idea to combine EVERY OTHER P.E. CLASS into one whole group. Those other classes have the worst boys imaginable. They have constantly insulted me this year, barked at me, treated me like a dog, and constantly laughed and yelled at me for no reason. Today was worse. I was just sitting at a table, listening to Arlo Parks at nearly full volume (At medium to full volumes, these headphones can block out almost all noise around me!) and these boys were all behind me making so much noise at me, calling out my name, throwing dirty sticks at my backpack, and just rambling on and on. I was strong to keep ignoring them. I did pretty well. However, when it was time to go back to the gym... oh god. They got LOUDER. Calling out my name, all that jazz.

But then someone came up to my backpack, and RIPPED OFF MY KEYCHAIN. A keychain that isn't found anywhere else too. It's handmade and I got it at a farmers market. A very prized possession, ruined. I didn't actually realize it was my keychain until someone came up to me and said ""I dropped it."" THAT pissed me off beyond comprehension. I aggressively snatched the plush back and strayed away from the class while everyone laughed behind my back until my teacher told me to come back. I told him the whole situation and was kind of rude to him too because he didn't help in the situation like he should be doing. (HES A TEACHER!! HE SHOULD BE DOING SOMETHING ABOUT THIS!!)

...This guy will always be a reminder of my pain. This is the keychain that was torn off.

These situations have been happening for so many years... and GOD is it painful. I can't handle being around boys for the sake of my sanity. It's too painful. This is why I don't have male friends IRL. They're all awful.

I swear I've been ranting quite a lot recently, but that's just me. I went on a much longer rant about my suffering and pain a couple of hours ago in the library. I don't think I can last.

Apart from that bigass rant... Today's song is "Portra 400" by Arlo Parks. Please listen to her album "Collapsed in Sunbeams"!! It's SO GOOD XD

Quick edit, my dad said that none of these are "men." They're immature boys. True...