I'm Fucking Delusional

I am a NEET (not a shut-in, I walk my dog) and I go to bed at 4 in the morning. It's been like this for three years now. I don't shower and I don't clean. I don’t hangout with nobody. I go to the internet just for the sake of doing something, because I ain't capable of doing nothing.

And yet I have this burning desire to rule the world. I genuinely think I'm capable of doing Alexander the Great type shit.

It drives me insane because I'm supposed to be ruling the world right now, but here I am, doing probably the exact opposite of that. 

This mismatch with who I am right now and who I'm actually supposed to be is causing me to feel shame, therefore hating myself, therefore not taking care of myself, therefore being stuck as a NEET. 

I'm fucked.

I feel shame because I am a NEET, and I am a NEET because I feel shame. 

How tf am I supposed to get out of this loop.