You don’t learn how to do magic, you are the magic and you learn about yourself

Soo, it’s a really beautiful full moon rn so I used this time to get a bit spiritual and reflective,, cause I been going through some shit for the past couple years and theres some things that I have learned in my spiritual journey that in times of suffering sometimes I ignore,, when really you should do the opposite when you are going through hard times. And I was purposely remembering some of that tonight and I just wanted to share some of it here.

The main thing I wanted to write about and share is the phrase I thought about today. “You don’t learn how to do magic, you are the magic and you learn about yourself“. And I don’t know if I heard it somewhere or if I worded it myself lol, but I thought about it earlier by reflecting on how as I started advancing in occultism sometimes you can get trapped in the cartoonish meaning of magic that u do “spells” to get earthly gains, but in reality you only advance in the esoteric journey when you let go off desire and wishes and you start doing self-observation, practicing gratitude, humility and love. Thats when the “real” (or the most visible) alchemical transmutation happens,, thats when u feel you took the next step and you are in a new phase of your soul’s journey.

And its really hard to try to explain all of this to other people cause most ppl are in disbelief of the occult or the paranormal, could be by fear or by being obsessed or very comfortable with material life,, and even If they are interested its very hard to put into human words what reality is. That’s why theres soo many books and media and religions and spiritual paths for asking these questions, and it would be very hard to explain all I know to someone that doesn’t know the terms I need to use for that, (just like I cant understand ppl that use terms I haven’t understood either). And also u cant rlly reach the most accurate conclusion on what god is cause basically, the human mind is a finite mind and existence is an infinite mind, it simply cant all fit in one individual consciousness, but collectively we can.

That’s why esotericism advances just as a science, there has been milestones in the advancement of our collective human comprehension of God, spiritual revolutions that have advanced our understanding of it very rapidly too, just like the industrial revolution did to material sciences, and there has been also times in history where it advances very slowly. But its always going forward. This is collectively, but individually it’s the same thing but to a more “microscopic” zoom in,, we are always advancing in our soul’s journey, always going to the end goal.

So the question is, if theres an end goal for our soul, what is it?. And this is where the phrase im writing all this for comes into play. “You don’t learn how to do magic, you are the magic and you learn about yourself”. Cause “magic” is the practice of understanding the goal. We can understand it collectively and individually, magic is that process of discovery. And I cant say how exactly everyone is supposed to learn it specifically,, I know my personal initiation and the process of gaining awareness of god’s plan was really bizarre,, its something very personal for everyone on the journey.

I can say though that the most basic principle for both understanding what is God and ascending to God is basically Love, that’s the most basic form of reducing all the “science” that is spirituality, occultism, esotericism. Although some in those circles would disagree with that specific word,, I use love as the longing of being united,, its that spark of love that wants us to be united to everything,, by wanting to be united to God you ascend closer to him, microcosmically is just like by wanting to be united with someone you do it by practicing love,, bonds with friendships, family and romantic partners.

Maybe all this sounds very corny lmao but I edited an image I found online that I wanted to share here,, basically to share a very simple explanation of a more advanced thing in esotericism, at least more advanced in the specific branch I practice. The main idea is that the universe/God/The source is basically a singularity that expanded and created an infinite number of “monads”, this in quantum physics is referred to as the initial singularity that expanded in the big bang. Science doesn’t really oppose spirituality or occultism,, the only “difference” is that science hasn’t accepted yet that quantum is conscious, but we are near,, this is a topic that is being discussed by quantum physicists and metaphysics is now taken seriously by the scientific community when before the 2000s it was basically discarded as new age hippie schizophrenia xD. But anyway when the singularity expanded into infinite monads,, each monad itself created 12 souls, and each soul created 12 personalities that manifest in physical reality,, this is “us”. Your sense of individuality is one of these personalities experiencing reality. Theres many dimensions on this path upwards,, what matters is that theres 12 personalities that belong to your soul group,, and each monad having 12 souls which 12 personalities each means theres 144 souls belonging to your monad. This we call “monadic family”,, in those 144 personalities you can find “past” or “future” lives, important figures in your spiritual journey, like mentors or relationships that triggered profound transformations in your journey, twin souls etc.

All this basically works like a machine uploading data,, your soul is working with these 12 personalities to get information together, in the computer metaphor the soul wants to gather data and “compress” (unite) so it can “upload” that information upwards,, and your monad is doing the same with its 12 souls, this is spiritual ascension. In this experiencing of information is where we are put to trials and lessons,, so the goal is basically to experience, digest the information and unite so you can expand the consciousness of your soul group, so it can expand the consciousness of its monad to ascend to a dimension that is closer to the source,, and in our human reality that process is basically love xD. Sounds rlly complex but the goal really comes down to just “learn and love”, by doing this that’s how u know ur in the right path in your spiritual journey.

This is all part of an infinite formula of mathematics and physics and theres a loooot to it, sacred geometry etc. This is just a tiny piece of all that which I wanted to share here in a very simple and reduced way

Peace and love <3