I'M IN LOVE.

So I know I don't typically post personal things/stories on here, but I just need to get this off of my chest. There's this girl I've been friends with for a while; she and I have been friends for about a year and a half, two years now. There was never a point where I didn't like her. I've always admired her, her many talents and the way she does things with such grace. She's so funny, we just understand each other's sense of humor. And she's really smart too. I mean, really smart. She's an amazing dancer, singer, and actor, and the coolest thing? She has a 10/10 fashion sense. 

Within the last few months, we've been talking a lot. About just random things, like outfits and animals and our favourite things and music and comics. She's oh so pretty, I can't take my eyes off of her. Anyways, the entire time I've known her, I've had a small feeling in the back of my mind. I'd always ignore it, because for one she had a boyfriend at the time it originated and for two, I was sure she wasn't into me like that. Honestly, thinking back on it, it still feels so strange that she actually likes me. Sorry, I'm getting ahead of myself. 

So this week, those feelings kind of blew out of proportion. No clue why or what prompted it, but I couldn't get her out of my mind. I felt bad because I didn't want to make things awkward between us, she had stated before that she typically avoids dating friends. But the more I thought about her the more I wanted to be with her. I wanted to love her, to give her everything she wants. I had to fight not to grab hold of her hand or kiss her, or even just hug her. After a lunch with her and a few of our other friends, I was walking to class with one of our friends and couldn't help but blurt out "_____ is hot". I regretted saying it instantly because I knew my cover was blown. Not that I didn't mean it; she's fine af. But I didn't want to tell anyone. I was planning on waiting out the feelings and letting them go away, if that were even possible. So my friend questions it and I attempted to play it off, but I don't think it worked because guess what happened?

Friday night I was talking to this girl over text. I notice she's being kinda flirty? But I ignore it because I just think it's wishful thinking. The suddenly, she straight up asks "do you have a crush on me?" and I FROZE. But I admitted to it and we figured things out. SHE LIKES ME BACK! SHE SAYS SHE'S BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT FOR A BIT AND SHE LIKES ME BACK! I went to her house earlier today (well, technically yesterday) and we hung out and I got to lay next to her and rest my head on her shoulder. I absolutely love her so much. It feels so unreal that she actually likes me back, I'm still half expecting her to turn around and be like "haha jk you suck". 

But I'm terrified. What if she thinks she likes me, but then realizes she doesnt? What if I do or say the wrong thing? What if I can't make her happy? What if I make her uncomfortable? What if I go to fast or slow? What if I make her upset and I don't know? There's so many things that could go wrong, and it worries me. But I'm willing to risk it all to be with her. I will forever and always try to make her feel happy, loved, and worth every second of my time. Because she is. I will never make her feel like she's unwanted or worthless. I will make sure she feels like the beautiful, smart, loving, funny, kind, talented girl she is. Every second of every day. Every day of every week. Every week of every month. Every month of every year. And every year of our lives. 

Now if you'll excuse me, I have a girl to spend my night thinking about. 

Truly, 

Danny.