Depressive Lowz r Weird az Hell

normally when ppl think of a depression iz jus liek . an empty overwhelming sadness, often in tha contextz of similar 2 mine being baseless n irrational n liek . i mean kinda . but moreso iz liek i can still Feel that overwhelming joy n energy n clear thoughtz of mania, but . iz locked up . iz trapped n i cant ackshually reach it . nawt only doez it feel liek im grieving my lost joy, iz trapped in my ribcage n straining against tha bonez . n i think thaz partly y i need 2 rip my skin off and return 2 concept .

i hope my bonez shatter soon . im tired of tha way my chest iz aching . really really really tired of it .