deeply thinking

everything is so confusing but yet i understand it perfectly. i've seen, studied, and mastered the way things work socially, the way people talk, how to blend in with others and conceal my flaws but now i feel like things are slowly falling apart, almost like a slow, agonizing version of humpty dumpty's fall. i walk on eggshells but there is nothing im walking so carefully for, its strange. ill be 17 in 3 n a half months. i've accepted that things won't be how they were back then, and im okay with it. i've found a new happiness for myself within who i am now, and i like it. for right now, life is beautiful.