Sleep is a fleeting joy i cannot grasp

Me, on the floor of my friend's bedroom, geeked on my allergy medicine, depression meds, AND even fucking melatonin, and I cant sleep. Like literally. Oh my freak I'm on the verge of a royal crash out here

I cant fucking sleep. That's all. And im mad about it. Its the early hours of the morning. What the flip. Its bc my friend puts on like SO MANY flourescent lights when she sleeps cuz she scared of the dark and I literally can't fucking sleep. So I'm on the floor with my other friends, hugging my weighted Dino plushie, literally on the verge of tears. I love my life smmmm <3

And this is right after we cried for an hour listening to DNA Guarantee and other songs that reminded us of our parental issues so my eyes sting like a buncha wasps just went "buzzzzz hisssss" all around em and made them swollen

I cant do this shit for much longer. I have to knock out at some point, right??? RIGHT????

Sorry guys im on my Frank Heffley schizophrenia arc 😔