4-11-2025

"This dream isn't feeling sweet

 we're reeling through the midnight streets

And I've never felt more alone

feels so scary getting old"

 ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚       

 Dear Diary,     

I love him so much. He means the world to me. I think I'd rather die then be without him. I wish I was able to see him more often. It would mean the world to me to be able to spend more time with him, yk? I just...can't. 

I chose this song for a reason. It makes me feel nostalgic in a way. Like, I don't know. The lyrics mean a lot to me. It does feel so scary getting old, time is going by so fast and...I can't go back. I'm so terrified. 

But at the same time, I'm happy. I have friends, have a life, have a future. That's what's important. After all these years, I'm finally living. I'm finally alive.

I'm happy for the first time in a while.

But at the same time, something feels empty inside me. Like I'm missing something. 

Oh well, it's too late to think right now.

Goodnight for now!

 ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚      

"You're the only friend I need 

Sharing beds like little kids 

And laughing 'til our ribs get tough 

But that will never be enough"

- Ribs, Lorde