First Time Doing a Blog (Do I Still Need to Capitalize Like Everything in the Title?)

THIS IS SOMETHING I JUST WANNA TRYOUT, CAUSE IT WOULD BE GOOD TO MAKE A PAPER TRAIL OF MY TEENAGE HOOD TO LOOK BACK ON EVEN THOUGH ITS ALMOST ENDING. 

Today wasn't anything crazy special, it was kinda boring really. I feel like I'm taking more tests in my classes which kinda sucks but I should've expected it to get harder. It just feel like hammering though, almost a dripping feeling as I put more work down into whatever I'm doing and it goes nowhere. It feels like shoveling coal into a train car with no destination but a limit of coal. And I don't think I'm close to that limit but it saddens me to know that there is a limit to begin with. I wish I could go back to elementary school where by just having common sense I could get past any class I wanted. Looking back on it, it feels more like adults were just ignoring my problems because it wasn't as bad, or it was fixable. I've been told all my life that my flaws are fixable, and I wish I could see it that way too. But it's hard to do that, to look at that boulder in my path and say with confidence that I could climb over it. But climbing over it doesn't make it go away. And even if I could, I don't see better grass on the other side. I feel like one of  those npcs in a rpg that you find midgame, stopped halfway up the journey. I can sell items and I have a personality, but I can go further. And I'm worried that all I'll ever be...