Is it even my life anymore?

Get a job. Can't find one that wants to hire part-time, can't do full time because my schedule is full. 

You're studying this, how do you not know this? Maybe because my college isn't teaching me this. Maybe because I'm not learning anything from school. Have you thought about listening to the courses I'm taking? They keep putting me in classes that have nothing to do with learning language scripts.

How long does it take to learn a language? You're so slow. Two alphabets are hard to learn. It's hard to learn something new after being forced to learn a language I never wanted to learn when I was younger. 

You're so miserable, how could you ever get a partner? When the hell are you going to find a partner? Maybe stop bringing it up, maybe find a partner and stop burning bridges because you would rather listen to your negative thoughts then people looking out for you. Maybe if you stopped belittling me I would be more confident about myself. 

These were your dreams! You're not quitting because you can't do it, you can do it! There's being delusional and being realistic, persuing a dream and seeing it go nowhere hurts more then not doing it at all. 

Oh stop being dramatic, I was just teasing~. There's teasing and then there's pressing a knife that I don't want you to touch. You think it's funny to break bones I'm trying to fix? Fuck off.

Learn to have a sense of humor! You're not funny at all. To you maybe- why do I have to like military jokes? Why is referencing a bloody game funny? Why isn't a cat funny? 

You don't do anything around the house! Your just mooching off of us! Now go get me some water and go do the chores like you always do. Sure.

Approximately it takes 17-20 pills of varying types to cause an overdose of over the counter meds. I currently have 5 because I refuse to take medicine given to me by people who belittle me- non of the situations needed medicine anyways.

It really does start to feel like the only thing you can control is your own life or death.