Sour sixteen

so, tomorrow is going to be my 16th birthday. 16th birthday party.

to say im worried would be an understatement.

this is by far the most expensive party ive had in the last few years, probably the mot expensive ever, and its not like im even having a huge fancy birthday in some kinda ballroom or something. its litterally at a dave & busters in timessquare.

dont get me wrong, the place was my idea, and the outfit is something is that i picked out myself, and i got to invite all the firiends i wanted, but. i;m so scared that the stakes are so high, that i reallly just feel obbliged to MAKE SURE i like and enjoy everything that day, that i have to be happy every waking second, and that because of how much money and time was spent, any dissapointment or negativity could ruin the whole day for me.

for starters, it'll probably rain on my birthday. i straighten my hair a LOT, and any inch of rain could fuck up nor only my hair, but my outfit too. i'l be a loittle upset, but im mainly worried about my parents overall reaction. and other than that, i JUST started like, my period, so im already afraid i'll be in pain, extremely exhaustioed, and sluggish on the one day i should feel happy and excited and jumpy. i feel like my short temper and tiredness would irritate my parents on accident, or even make my friends confused or something. not to mention D&B is a really loud place, and i just dont know if it might overwhelm me, or even at worse, make me cry.

honestly, i rely on my boyfriend a lot tomorrow for emotional support. he's the only person at that party who i can fully trust. i told him to come early first and foremost, and im hoping maybe he'll help me get through the day.

i hope i dont mess it up.

- Cozmite