Surreal

It's 5am again, oh dear. I couldn't get back to sleep so naturally that led to me scrolling Nekoweb which led to me scrolling Melonland which led to me seeing a bunch of people with their Spaceheys linked to their profiles so I figured it was time to give this a shot. It's so surreal being here. Don't get me wrong, it's cool and I love it. It's just really bizarre to have spent years pining for the web I grew up on, and then discovering it's still there. Living kid me's dream, I guess!

I wanna get more involved with forums and hopefully have some fun interactions across the web and just connect with people who understand the desire to be away from the corpos and social media. I love my site but I feel I always put so much pressure on myself to make my personal projects perfect and it just sucks the fun out of it, so I'm hoping Spacehey and my silly little blog entries will give me that outlet without the pressure of creating from scratch.

I played some Blue Prince earlier and it's so cool. I'm not generally into roguelikes but it's such a unique and exploration-based take on the genre and it's really sucked me in. I feel guilty for not playing much Nikki throughout the current event but I burn out from it so easily and I know better than to force myself anymore. The same goes for Santae. I was so excited to find a Neopets replacement only to burn out from the grind-reward ratio, especially after learning that the lead dev really really sucks as a human lol.

Liam's been on holiday so I've been using that as excuse to have a rotting week, like my own vacation but in my bed. But my fatigue has been so up and down and my spine and neck are absolutely killing me from all the rest I've been trying to get and I'm just stuck in a gross cycle. I'm trying to stay positive but everything is so middle of the road right now I'm just in a constant state of feeling anxious or uncomfortable. Ready for them to get home and give me cuddles.