Is it normal to feel ugly and unloved?? //vent

I've been feeling this way a LOT, and it really sucks. Mostly because I KNOW I'm not really conventionally attractive. I mean, I'm pasty pale, have a janked up haircut, my nose is weird, and my cheeks are super chubby. And it's not all looks that matter, it's also my personality. I'm cold and reclusive! I'm extremely awkward, not to mention I'm taller than almost everyone. 

I just think I'm feeling this way because of "classic" teenage self image distortion, but it doesn't make it any less sucky. Also the lack of romantic attention I've gotten. I'm not exactly charismatic, I just kind of...exist. And I like that, sometimes, that is. It can get lonely really fast. I have friends, but to the vast majority of kids in my school I'm just another face in the hallway. And that's FINE! Sorry, I feel like I'm rambling. But anyway, all of my friends have had people confess to them, or have dated people, but I haven't had a single experience with that. I just kind of feel like the ugly friend, and it's kind of true. All of my friends are really pretty, and I'm just...me.

But yeah, it'd be nice if someone just had a crush on me once in a while. I just need the ego-boost, as terrible as that sounds. Other people's feelings are NOT an ego boost...but can you help it? Someone thinks you're pretty, that's kind of reassuring to know that not EVERYONE except for my mom and close friends think I'm an ugly rat. I think I'm ugly, and that's really hard to accept. And my personality sucks, too! The only thing I have is my academics, and even those are sliding. If I get ANYTHING less than a 90% on my math quiz tomorrow then I get a B, ruining my 4.0!! I CANNOT have that happen. But, I'm rambling again.

I know this just sounds like I'm complaining and fishing for compliments (or my own brain is telling me that because every time I used to vent my family would tell me that) but I legitimately feel this way. It sucks, and I just need to spill my feelings into writing, and to see if anyone can relate to the single struggles.