Just gonna ramble before work ☆

Ive been wanting to use this blog more but I'm still getting used to using it on my phone. I dont know what to talk about but in the sake of building a habit ill probably just talk about what's been going on with me

About a week ago we drove back to my hometown for a family emergency. Without elaborating too much, one of my sisters was killed very abruptly. Tomorrow it will be a month since her death and time doesn't really feel real? I've been going back to work and I both love it (gives me smth to do, plus getting money) and hate it (hate working retail when I don't wanna exist in public). 

Next month I'll hopefully be going back to school. Still working on an environmental science degree, still hoping to maybe work in the national park system, or maybe even field work somewhere. I dont feel ready, and I dont feel like I'll be able to afford it, but I dont really know what to do about that right now.

My interests have kind of. Dwindled and gone awry a bit. I've taken a big interest since I've been home in old tech and old webcore stuff. I've been tossing around the idea of ditching my smartphone for a flip phone, but I dont know how to do that without leaving me anxious without my phone (an unfortunate consequence of growing up nowadays). I have a digital camera and am looking at maybe acquiring a little mp3 player, do u guys know how difficult it is to find a simple mp3 app that isn't loaded with ads and lets you edit metadata? I finally found one but I'm still getting used to the layouts.

With the new switch coming out too. God those prices suck. Ive been wanting to save for a steam deck, but im bad with long term goals and it's been difficult. I need to save money to pay for school too. It's really hard being both depressed and broke. Kinda really feeling like society is awful and nothing is real anymore. Tryna do little things like this to get little boosts here and there to keep going forward. 

See you guys later