I think i caused someone to OD tonight.

oh my god I feel so bad like I hate him but I feel disgusting reading his blog. Im genuinely hitting too deep in my shoulder because of this.i can't tell Crona because he's probably going to disown me like my first parents and I don't want to be a foster care again. And I can't  try to apologize to Jasper because he's probably already in the damn hospital getting his stomach pumped, Millie would be pissed, Scout would shrug it off, Graceila would get me to fucking smoke. i hit so low in my own mental health that I genuinely just caused someone to almost die. Holy shit.