im sorry (in lesbian)

Your hands whent down to the the waist band of my pants as you looked up at my with those big green eyes, not saying a thing yet saying so much. I shook my head and you noded and put your hand back to my waist like it was no big deal that i wasnt ready, like you didnt take it as a insult. a faint okay left your lips. no man, no boy wouldve ever stoped there, no one ever did. ive always had bad compentment issues, i aways think to myself that if i take one opportunity im saying no to thousands of other opportunities, i think that every time so i say no to every one which gives me non of the expenses i long for. i never regreted it, not even right after when i was saying all those things. how could i regret the only time i ever felt save in a sexual setting. maybe that was the thing that made me realize a man could never be gentle enough to make me feel save or maybe it was when brandon fumbled me so hard everyone started saying if you talk to him for more then 5 minutes he'll turn you into a lesbian.