help..?

I lowkey wanna break up with my girlfriend. I just want someone else to be honest. Someone who understands me and will support and love me all the way and actually show it. It's not like  'M' doesn't show it I just really feel heavy right now and I just don't feel like it's working out. I feel like  she doesn't really pay attention to me. Like I'm not even there. One time I showed her my drawings that took very long and all she said was "cool". I  don't wanna be self-centered or absorbed or selfish she's just.. I always give her praise when she does something I tell her how much I love it and how beautiful it is.. I don't know.. I'm starting to lose what I have for her. I jst don't even care who I have anymore (I do care has to be sm1 I know well or in my age range) I want someone to comfort me, hold me, console me, like loving affection. Pet names yeah..they make me feel warm inside but anything but (baby) it's weird I know I just don't really like it as much, you can use it but just not much you know? I want someone who has the same interests as me, knows me well, will actually love me, affection, matches my energy, a really great person. I might break up with my girlfriend for someone who is willing to give me love.. is that too much to ask? it's not but I will wait until a miracle happens.. counting on God.. and myself also keeping high hopes. I'm praying for one a right one just really want someone to reciprocate me for once for who I am but it's hard I'm kind of really ugly and weird so who would want me, lol?? at the same time I kind of want her to break up with me I know it's eventually coming soon. But should I root for someone else? should I wait? should I go for it? should I stay? I don't know..