I wish i didnt have anxiety.

My anxiety is feeling to overwhelming lately. 

I can't do jobs, work, or leave the house by myself without feeling deep heaviness. 

Like it's bone deep. It feels like I'm pulling weight. 

I was taking medication for my anxiety but the price is to much for me. I can't afford to experiment  with different type of medication. And I can't afford it in general. 

Why do I have to have anxiety? 

Why is this world failing?