chat. chat. uhm. recap on the last like year :]

i like.  lowk kinda doubt.  that anyone really remembers me.  i had very limited interactions with my spacehey peepers, mb...... BUT.  in case anyone even cares, here's a quick list of the things that've gone down while i was gone, with elaboration underneath that!!:

- finally stopped being stupid about the system thing

- got stuck in a loop with my previous partner from last august onwards (over 6     months) where they would PURPOSEFULLY trigger bpd + narc crashes

- broke up with said last partner (<- got dumped after they triggered a breakdown    on valentines and ignored me the whole day, but whatever, i was the one who cut    them off for good)

- uhm.  went from a system of 20 (when we were first using spacehey) to a system of    50+.  with possibly more.  so.  lovely /sarc

- GOOD THINGS ALSO HAPPENED.  i just recently (a few weeks ago) got with like.  the    best guy ever.  who... is the reason i even remembered i had a spacehey,,, uhm so    thank salem for me being back

uhm.. yeah that's about it. 

the big thing was my last ex- you mayyy have noticed i completely wiped my blog of mentions of them <3 which .  was like .  the whole blog .  mb guys... but.  yeah :] it's why i was never online at first and why i was like constantly miserable if y'all ever,,, noticed that,,, they shoved me into like the worst depressive episode i think i've had since THE bad things happened to me, which was like actually absurd.  it peaked in like february when i asked to talk to them on valentines (because they had ignored me for days and i hadn't heard anything from em) and then they agreed, but ignored me the day of and didn't actually show up until like fuckin 8 at night,, uhm i tried to talk to them and they shut me down and was like actually genuinely really mean which caused.  a breakdown.  bc of course it did yk.  and then they just. left ....... so uhm yeah.  they then showed up 5 days later, called me a burden, dumped me, didn't let me talk to them at all about it, and left me with no clue about what was gonna go on.  which led to,,, me cutting them off,,, because they kept hurting me even after we broke up.  so.  yeah :] fun stuff, you can surely see i have the best love life ever /sarc /cj.. im mostly better from it, but friends of mine still have contact which means they're still in my life.  i've asked for them to not contact me but yk people will do what people want so. yk.  no one's gonna cut em off so now it's just shit until they graduate

we (because of the shit partner) started mass-splitting hence the.  "hey im a system now :D" basically announcement.  as it turns out, 20 is a lot easier to overlook than over 50... i've put it in other places, but the simplyplural that has all of us is available to singlets (not-plural-peeps /silly) AND other plurals alike, and it's cradle_ofadam :]  we've also been more active on tumblr, which is NICE !!! my (host, sirius, the person whos typing this rn and the person who was using spacehey before the big timeskip) blog is THIS ONE RIGHT HERE and we also have a system blog which is this ol thing :] we're not the most active on the system blog, but my blog is REALLY active you should 100% check it out /nf

aaand,, yeah :] im with someone new :]  he's really nice, i really like him, and xe's a genuinely good person-  he's ALSO.  on here.  i linked his page above BUT.  he's also on tumblr and is really truly very silly.  mhm mhm.  ok thats about it... yeah :] im happy :]  it was a rough patch but i am BACK !! and HAPPY TO BE HERE !!! ok thats it now :]