entry #6 ᛝ 06.04 ⟢

yet another pretty calm week, but this one marks the beginning of the spring hollidays ! 

I had a math test on monday, which went suprisingly okay ! I was ready for the worst BUT I managed to finish all of the exercises early and get most of them right (according to my calculator) so I'm pretty sure I'll get a good grade :) ALSO since the second's were on the euro trip this week I had a ton of class that were cancelled so I finished earlier/had more free time this week. 

I've also felt way more tired and on the edge this week which isn't good. Idk what I have or if it's just related to the fact that I have a lot of work and classes, but I doubt it's related to that because this time I really didn't have much tests or homework and I still put everything to do at the last moment or feel at edge all week. Maybe it's hormones? Idk... I should probably go talk to a psychologist but idk asking my mom to find one (because there's no way I'll do it) is so scary and overwhelming. i'm pretty sure I'm just overwhelmed but idk what to do. I have a lot of homework to do these hollidays and in one week (because I'm going to Berlin yippee) so I really need to get my shit together.

About that trip to Berlin, I really REALLY want to find some clothings because I barely have anything for the summer and I NEED shorts and t-shirts and cardigans and I really want to look cool but I almost only have basic ahh clothes and idk how to dress cool uagjrgezh I also want to dye my hair again but idk what color.... if anyone has an idea I'll take it ! 

Oh ! and I discovered zolpidem this week ! It all started when I saw a really cool redraw of a genshin emoticon and I was like "wow this character looks sososo good, he's so cool" and someone in the comment had said it was gedo from zolpidem so I looked zolpidem up. What was my surprise when I saw a bunch of medications pop up but when I tried to add "game" or smt to my search it proposed 'zolpidem jpop' and boom I stumbled upon the weeky of the group ! they all look so cool and I'm so invested in their overall aesthetic. I've listened to their ep and watched some videos on youtube but one member is apparently a p3d0 so yuck I'm trying to understand what  the hell is going on in the community but so far there hasn't been any real explanation so we'll see.

I also watched a playthrough of Ena dream BBQ today and the ena episodes on youtube yesterday and I fell in love with Ena's design and the rest of the characters !! I really loved the french mannequin (?) woman and also the popular coral-glasses lady. I can't wait for the remaining episodes to come out because I really want to understand the lore a bit more. I'll try to watch more videos explaining the lore and maybe more playthroughs to understand the game a bit better (tbh I kind of started not following the game by the very end of the story)