boys will be boys

Welcome back to my ranting blog as always, so like... there is a boy, GASP! nah I joke, I kid but like fr fr he got me smilin- LIKE HEAR ME OUT!?

His name for now I'll call him like, Jacob? (sorry if you're reading this and your name is Jacob) and he's like a part of the sporty boys and all that jazz. It may not make much sense but I'm in Australia and the sporty boys are the boys in your year that group up together (usually the biggest group of boys).

and are normally made up of sporty guys and the troublemakers and all that.

Jacob is like the ringleader kinda? He's tall so I'll say around 6'2ft? I'm 5'11 (180cm exactly) and he's like a head taller than me so idk, (yes I am a tall girl). ANYWAYS! I think he's of Thai origin but thats not the point my dear readers.

So like normally when a girl has a crush its all like stalking and kinda obsessive? like knowing what he likes and does, where he hangs out all that stuff right? with Jacob it's like... how do I describe it? one day I walked past him on my way out of school and he walked behind me.

my legs began to feel like Jello for some reason... and I could hear my heart in my ears. That's never happened to me before mind you :p

Am I delulu? should I give more examples... yeah I will

so, most of the years we are in the same classes, this year we aren't but back in 2024 last year before the school year ended, we were all sat in English class with a sub teacher who was putting on some Enola Holmes to watch for a free period. Before the movie started, I was lipsing a bottle, which means that I hover the bottle over my mouth and tilt my head back and tilt the bottle a little to pour the drink into my mouth without my lips touching the bottle.

As I was doing so, Jacob walked by (We sit at the back of the class) and he playfully reaches over and pretends to knock on my bottle to make it tilt over and splash water on me. So I stopped drinking the water and glared at him, playfully of course.

One thing about this is that he doesn't interact with girls often at all, only if he has to like there is gossip he wants in on or he wants to ask something. I didn't clock this at first but now that I think about it... 

AND THEN! when sir turned off the lights and played the movie, Jacob and his group of boys were tossing a tissue box around at the back of the class like a football. This would sometimes get a little too close to the other students when they threw it around and it would land but they never apologised when it almost hit someone.

When it almost hit me, I smiled and tossed it back to them... BUT before I did Jacob still laughing from him and his friends actions, apologised to ME!? HE SAID "oh shit, sorry micha" AND THEN I PASSED IT BACK TO HIM.

That's not all my friends!

We may eye-contact a lot for some reason, even though we aren't in the same class anymore we run into each other alot. Another example is when my school was having an event and I was helping pack up when it ended, him and his friends were sat at a picnic table as I walked by and for some reason I looked over.

HE WAS ALREADY LOOKING AT ME! I got nervous and looked away, pretending to be talking to my friends as we passed... I could still see him looking at the corner of my eye, and he did that every time I passed by for packing up.

Guys... is delulu my selulu...