6, april 2025. 1:00PM

log no. 0406 from my mental basement.

it's not just about the oversharing. what hurts me is the weight of something very personal and vulnerable being passed down like it's just another story. i never wanted to beg for love, if i ever did, that was a very raw moment and for him to tell that to everyone is a kind of betrayal i never expected.

i've opened myself and humbled myself in the most possible way to show how much i love that certain someone, and instead of protecting it, he handed it down like it's nothing.

i am deeply hurt. i feel disrespected and betrayed. i was the only one who keeps on understanding everything but this just crossed a line that hits my dignity.

may i find peace with this pain, may i never stain my heart with hatred and grudge anymore.