Friends are a confusing thing.

I don't have many friends that I trust, honestly. Most of them abandon me or talk bad about me behind my back, or exclude me. It's tiring. I feel loneliness consuming me every day, it's awful. Does anyone else feel this way? :P 

I haven't felt complete for a few years. Does anyone want to be my friend? I'm cool, I swear. Preferably, someone who speaks Portuguese. (It's hard to write in a second language.)