pete wentzing

im tired (im always tired) is there ever a time when i won't feel tired? when i feel im actually in the right spot, and not playing dead walking. good news exhausts me for days. dream fulfillment , archs coming to fruition puts me in anxiety comatose and i could use a drink. I don't drink like that but i could, and im afraid of coulds. im hopeful, excited, optimistic, but all that means is 75 percent *blank* and 25 percent anxiety. i wish to live with myself but often its like im just some beast to be incrementally satiated when it threatens to destroy a town. does anything ever make sense. could i make it if i tried? or am i just another sacrifice for the pit of copies and fakes.

ash☆