A vent from a Deaf person ;P

3/27/2024

I asked the question "how come you didn't talk to me as much?" and they said that my interpreters were there. That made me wonder how many people missed the opportunity to befriend me because of my disability. I had couple of realization that I wouldn't have any friends if I didn't wear hearing aids.

I was hard to talk to due to my speech, I still am when people first get to know me. That gets me insecure. Taking speech therapy wasn't enough for people to comprehend what I'm saying to them. I don't make sense unless I exaggerate. It makes me feel so bad when I say something and I get the look.

I hate how my roommate acted towards me, she was passive aggressive. When I wanted to clean the mold in the bathroom, she directly said that she would rather do it herself because I don't know how to do it. She said that as if I was too retarded to learn over simple instructions. I know a couple of people who would agree that I don't follow instructions easily but that doesn't mean I'm seriously that retarded or completely useless. When I get excused, I just feel pointless to exist, it's the worst feeling.

I feel like a burden to everyone, it hurts more when you're a burden to someone you love and that they weren't patient. It's not their fault.