10/13/2024

I went on a 2 hour walk late at night listening to whatever is similar to Deafheaven. The song that I recently liked is called "I don't love" by Have a Nice Life. It's a depressing song to hear but to me it's refreshing. Also, I went on a swing at the park near where I live. I like feeling my hands being cold, it was comforting me.

After a while I walked back home from the park. I got locked out of my house so I waited for one of my parents to answer while I spent my time with my cat Max.

I've been suicidal for months and always been anxious about things that I just don't have control over. Today I unfollowed a lot of accounts that spam unhealthy things. I guess I'm in recovery and it's going to take a long time for me to become normal and be mentally stabled again.