i wanna be in love so bad i might be insane

heey...... so..... something happened.

i was kind of obsessed with a boy at the gym, my friends tried to help me to interact with him but he wasnt really givingANY fucks. like he was looking at me like he wanted to die all the time so i said ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then, after a day i said "ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i dmed one of my gym boyfriends that i find really cute (i mean he is the only one that i find Actually-Attractive, ma friends are cute but just as Bros) with no intentions i swear, i just sent a picture of him that my bestie took on my phone and he started FLIRTING WITH ME. girl. i was like. oh. ill take that. but at first i didnt know that he was flirting fr and i forgot to text him back............ he sent me a bunch of things and i didnt answer cause i dndt even see it...... THEN after a week, one of my Bros came to me while i was working hard to get a Big Fat Ass and said 'why did you ignore him????? youre so dumb" BITCH I COULDNT EVEN TELL,....... then i stopped the exercise for a bit to remember it, and i did. i really ignored my cute little attractive pretty friend. THEEEEEEEEEEN i dmed him again cause im not so dumb, and we are talking@!!!!! like everyday!!!!! today we are going to the gym together and im soosososososososososoososososososososo nervous and shy and excited cause i dont wanna speed thigns up but i just want to kiss him like. right now. im devastated that i cant kiss him everytime i see him.HOPEFULLY i will do that one day

im so embarassed bacause first: im socially awkward,.... second: when i sweat is just my head that sweats (FUCK I HATE IT) and my hair becomes an ugly mess.. third and last: its him like hes so cute like what did i do to deserve this cutie I MEAN HE SHOULD BE THE ONE SAYIN THIS im never bringing myself down because of a man ever again i swear im sorry i didnt mean to say that im not deserving him fuck i deserve everything......not everything but u get it....... anyways

i know that its be4en like 1 week since we started talking again but i wish we could get married today lowkeyy.......... bye hope he asks me out ill go anywhhere ok maybe im kinda ............ anxiousç.... fucccccccccccccccck