Y'all PMDD and Autism is HELL

If any of you don't know what PMDD is, to put it simply its a heavier version of PMS that has a lot more depth and side effects, and yes i do have it as a side effect of endometriosis. And I swear to god, combined with autism it just makes me feel so guilty because i feel insufferable. Sure, it ain't my fault, but I still feel terrible. Because what do you mean I'm mad at my boyfriend just because he's not available...Ya'll I know when he's not available most of the time so why the fuck am I getting angry and disappointed? Rejection sensitivity dysphoria sucks... It's not his fault being busy either... I just feel like such a terrible person when that happens. I don't know if any hormonal treatments would help because i already take pills for endometriosis :(