Is Anyone Else Feeling Off Today, Or Is It Just Me?

When my day started at 2:45 AM today (I work earlier than the ass crack of dawn for anyone asking "what the fuck??"), I suppose it seemed normal. At that time in the morning running on maybe 6 hours of sleep because I can never seem to go to sleep on time, I assume I'm honestly too groggy to even be able to tell what the day is going to feel like for me. That, or the only thing going through my head is "fuck I'm tired, it's so damn early~".

By the time I got to work things still felt normal, I suppose. I mean it was a little different from other shifts I worked but I thought nothing of it since we open later on Sundays and I'd never actually opened on a Sunday. No biggie, still learning the ins and outs of the job. Though, for the first time ever, I floated between more than 2 positions- 4 to be exact. Perhaps this feeling came from changing my focus so many times at work, but it truly, feels like it's more than that. About 2 hours before it was time for me to leave, I had a sudden realization of how chaotic everything seemed- for no good reason. We weren't busy, we weren't really short staffed, but for some reason- everything felt like it was in chaos. Then I tuned into the energy I was feeling, and something just felt, off. Specifically something about the weather was making me feel weird- and trust me, I've seen a LOT of rainy days due to my location. I guess the best way to describe this is that I felt as if I was in a totally different timeline than I was the day before. The chaos almost seemed to be a direct result of that. (Intuitively speaking, of course from a physical standpoint that makes no sense to anybody I'm assuming). I brushed it off and continued working. With my focus on something else, I ceased to feel that weirdness I had noticed. I finished up my shift, and headed home. Then came this strange feeling again, somethings off.

It seems as though communications have changed for me. The vibe that's coming across seems to be almost complete opposite from what it has been. I tell myself that it's nothing, and that people are just busy, tired, distracted- and I try to do the same. Distract myself, I mean. Perhaps if I find a way to pass time I will hear back from someone when they're not busy. Or perhaps, I won't feel like everything is weird. So that's what I did- for hours. And yet, it seems as though the weirdness has only gotten weirder to me. It's quite bothersome that I can't shake it, and my anxiety is starting to amp up, trying to tell me "something's wrong".

That's one thing I hate about being an intuitive with anxiety. I can't always figure out if "something's wrong" is coming from my intuition, or my brain. All I know is I feel it, and it's very uncomfortable. And either way, when not resolved, I get very anxious.

Perhaps I haven't been getting enough sleep, or maybe it is just the weather that's leaving me feeling some type of way. Maybe I'm just overthinking it. But, if you believe what I believe, maybe something is off, or even just different. So, what about you? Do you feel off today?? If so, let's talk about it.

As always, thanks for reading if you made it this far. I know this blog was probably kind of "meh" today, but who knows, maybe I'm not the only one. Until next time!