The Lovely World in my Brain

Was feeling a little blue today, so thought I'd write it down ;)

There is such a lovely world that I feel like I miss; that most people miss. It’s beyond the trees, or behind the bushes, or somewhere, or something. Everyone knows it, it's what we all want: pure bliss, eternal life, glee, some other adjective for happiness. I know it's not real, happiness that is. Happiness isn’t human, or at least true, adulterated happiness isn't. But, the pursuit of happiness is! Now that is human; to be constantly chasing some concept, some feeling.

I’ve felt true bliss, and been able to disregard the stressors in my life. But sadly, bliss leaves as quickly as it arrives. It festers in the cracks and crevices of the human brain and transforms into a zombie of a feeling. That's what we chase, the aftermath of bliss.

I wonder how long it will take for me to leave bliss behind, and if I can be content with the chase. It's something I think about too often and comes up when I am just alive, and young, and seeing the world. I think it's because I dreamed too much, and now everything feels like a let down.

I am some 20 something girl in some place and I feel as if the world has let me down. Maybe this is growing up, or maybe this is neurotic to think about and I should just do my laundry. It doesn’t matter much does it.