pissed off

I thought I talked to her about this, but today im just upset dude. She bought my little brother a whole thing of MY favorite ice cream. Im so fucking tiered of my mom favoring my brother. I cling onto her because I want her to like me, LOVE ME. But she likes him better. this whole day has een pissing me off, at school earlier today they made me take off my corpse paint, even though I know for a fact its fine?? My friends yearbook photo is them in clown makeup, so whats wrong with mine?? It wasnt even scary, i made it all pink. ON TOP OF THAT THEY MADE ME SCRUB IT OFF WITH FUCKING WATER. they didnt have makeup remover. I really fucking want to slit myself. Maybe then they'll care about me. I want my boyfriend.