03/04/2025; unsuccesful plan for today

okay so. i never done blogs EVER, but were always interested in reading them, so i thought to myself "hey why don´t you try to create one already? when you´ve been so interested about them o_0" and then here i am :D

today, i didnt went to school cause of some stomach problems (doesn´t usually happen to me, so it was probably something bad i ate yesterday [asifididn´thadabuldakramenyesterday] )so i managed to stay home (and aways from the rats in my school, yay). Since i was at home the whole day, only with my narcissistic dad, that wouldn´t be helping me further today, then i wanted to produce music (again, wow). Like, i really felt motivated, the urge to produce some creativity (artists will know), and on top of that i felt very interested in trying out new things - new styles, new sfx´s,  etc. etc. = aka the perfect day to produce music !!! ...BUT NO. i couldn´t. cause my dad was here. and since i have all my rooms basically connected (even my amateour studio) then with him being in this house the plan was really on the verge of breaking. "but hey, atleast you´ll be able to produce music later today, hm?" i thought to myself, BUT AGAIN NO, cause guess whatt? no "later today" will be cause A FUCKING MIGRAINE HAS GOT ME and now im unable to do shit. like really, i feel hammers constantly 24/7 HAMMERING my head even though i already took meds. and now im just praying to god to give me mercy and lessen this torture of mine.

im really feeling like some modern Beethoven, cause my life is so ironic in this case: i produce music YET i suffer with migraines (mostly triggered from loud sounds).... WHICH RAPPER WOULDNT WANT THIS.. 

so yeah, i´ll see how i´ll be doing later today, but im not giving it much chances for today honestly. lets just hope that i´ll be alright tomorrow or even through the weekend to calm down my overflowing creativity and motivation to record :,))))))

for now, peace out !!
-Itsuki