I have real issues

I just had a withdraw induced mental breakdown because I ran out of vape pods two days ago and couldn't get them until today. I was genuinely tweaking  and that's bad. I literally cried so much and hyperventilated over nicotine. This addiction isn't fun and cool and anyone who says people only vape or smoke or anything like that are doing it to look cool are fucking stupid.

I started doing this to cope with the first trump administration and now its gotten so out of hand that I mentally crack when I don't have nicotine running through my system. This is not a fun or cool thing, this is awful, I can't function properly without a vape and that scares me. I'm scared of what I'll do to myself and others if I don't vape for long enough. I need serious help, but help costs money that I don't have. I'm a broke college student and vaping is part of why I'm broke but once again, I can't function properly without it.

I hate myself for even getting into it. I wish I could find some kind of coping mechanism that wasn't so harmful. Someone please help.