Mind lost in the world

Well, it's been a month since my last post, and what's new in my life as a cat. Honestly, everything has changed, I've completely lost track of who I am, what I was.

Now I have a job, quite a wonderful one, I’d say, I earn enough to afford almost anything, but let’s not forget that I also have a girlfriend who loves me, though I don’t know how to express that, I'm lost in other thoughts, more than thinking about her.
Basically, by accident, I saw the Google account of an ex... I remember how rude and awful I was with her, I should have listened, but I didn’t, I just wanted animal instincts with her, not a relationship, and I regret doing that... I regret everything that hurt me and I wish I could turn back time to see how I was with other people.
The question was:
How was I with certain people now, in 2025?
If I were different than that miserable animal instinct, how was I?

Honestly, now, in 2025, I know too much, and I just don't care about myself or other people anymore, I just want to live my peaceful life as a childish cat.