Girl has no idea what's going on YET AGAIN

Theres this girl that ive been friends with since like 7th grade and i have always somehow admired her in some way bc i always thought she was cool yk. 

And now like im realizing the amount of like casual affection that weve shared over like the past few months and im thinking WHERE IS THE LINE between platonic and romantic affection, like i really dont wasnt to gaslight myself into like making myself believe that im in love with her but some of the things COULD be interpreted as romantic but what if that wasnt romantic to HER and ughhhhh

i just feel so bad about talking to her about my ex and like im so scared that im literally pushing her away by that like brooo WHAT DO I EVEN DO?????? 

this could also have something to do with the fact that im very scarred of giving and recieving affecction bc im scared ill make the other side uncomfortable bc im sapphic and they might think im in love with them and then like push me away and idkkk im overthinking this way too much and with her it was like never a problem since we got a bit closer in like november? IDEK WHAT TH THINK ABOUT THIS :c 

maybe im confused and delusional or the second option is that she likes me , which i wouldnt be mad about but at the same time i dont want to put myself too high and i dont knowwwwwww