bored out of my mind

i just spent the whole morning doing LAUNDRY and had sushi with my flatmate but she already left for her kid so im hanging around,, i colored some pages and now im snacking on the roasted almond she got me, waiting for my tea to cool down

i cant really see what im typing cause its so sunny in my room, shoujldnt that incentivize me to go outside ? no. weather can be deceiving, especially in spring. its actually FREEZING outside, i caught a cold last time i decided to go on an adventure so i wont take any chances now.

its pretty to look at though

yadda yadda yadda the weather

so anyway, there isnt much to talk about since most of it isnt all that interesting anyway.

but there is this one thing - or phenomenon? - that really bothers me and i dont know if i am just too sensitive and expecting too much, but. when i have a conversation with someone ive known for a good time to call them close, and i prompt them to make up a story with me like- what would we be doing if we went to the beach?

i would start by saying: i bet i would have to help you apply sunscreen cause youre so clumsy and you'd grt a sunburn anyway, but it would be fine cause i know a good remedy for that.

and i expect a response that kind of "drives the story forward" and usually it does happen but when it doesnt it just frustrates me.. like am i the only one who can come up with that stuff? i feel like it only happens with people who dont really care alllll that much about you to think about stuff like "what would karina do?" ive never had a friend who thought about me like that until six months ago. shes so sweet and she understands me and i understand her and we see things like cute key chains or trinkets and buy them to surprise each other. or make get well soon gifts and its so special to me. 

i feel like that should be normal among friends though, so this thoughtfulness i have been missing in my other friends. then again, maybe theyre busy and stressed or sleepy or just not creative like that am i too demanding. where was i going with this?