Journal Entry - 4/01/25 - >Roses are red, Violets are blue.. I have a crush on u!

Ughhhh!! Its April, and usually i'd be hella happy for school to be over........ except im not!! Waaahhh! Im leaving back to America in June, and he will probably forget about me! I want to confess. but what if he does like me back! ugh it'd be horrible! first time crush and we wouldn't even see each other!! waittt let me not get ahead of myself, maybe on a much lighter and kinda sad note, he respectfully rejects, of course a) i would be heartbroken but b) I wouldn't have to worry about longing for him, but then again.... my older cousin(whos been besties with him since 1st grd) is reassuring me that he does like me!! GOSH I HATE being in love with the msot respectful, and finest boy eva, but of course it had to be on this island, where i'll never see him ever again!!

which leaves me literally 1 month to either confess or to stay yearning for a boy i'll never meet again.. which absolutely suxsss!! I mean, i have him on facebook, but like i said before.. i dont do long distance! I hate to admit it, but I want to try those cringey couple things, like going to the park, buying snacks, movies, etc etc!!! I wish he could come to America but that would be selfish of me... like hello.. he has a life! I guess im forever going to yearn..

1 month till graduation. and 2 months till i leave.. can i cook? or will i horribly fail and tend up embarassing myself like the dumba$$ i am.. tune in next time sigmas....

  (hai emma!!)