lesbian shit rant

this had been bothering me for a while now. i have this friend, well not anymore. a lil context; we met a year ago, started talking a few months back, met up, she got a girlfriend, something happened between us. yep, something happened. Under the influence. I fucking hated it. she stopped talking to me for a week, which i understand.but then suddenly she messaged me weekly, to come over at their place cs her family was (apparently) asking me to.i kept declining. obv since we were talking again, i thought things were okay already. but no. now she stopped talking to me. FR NOW. mind u im so worried abt her cs ik shes going thru a depressive episode again and as a friend, i wanna be there for her.

theres also this other girl tht knew abt that night. well, she was there. also girl 1 actually set me up w girl2, yea hella plot twist. a week ago she confessed that she liked me. and that she wanted to pursue me. AND SUDDENLY SHE STOPPED TALKING TO ME, its all messing me up argh. 

I keep blaming myself for it so f up